Childhood,I miss you so much!

Sometimes I just feel I'm loosing everything I own..
Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and never wake up,but for some reason I always wake up alive..
Sometimes I feel so loved and I'm so happy that I want that everyone knows how happy I am..but most of the times..I just feel that every day that passes I lose something,and I don't know how to stop it..
I miss my old friends,especially my old best friend.I miss childhood more than everything!